Tinnitus has ruined my presence.

The past 5 or so months I've had pretty intense tinnitus. I've been trying to figure out what the root cause is but haven't come to anything definitive. January will be a month of me cutting out a few things in my life that may be the root to all my ear ringing🤞Point of this post is I woke up today with intense ringing, and it made me quite sad. Sitting in silence, being in the present moment, meditation, were all things that gave me great peace in life. However, now it feels almost impossible to be present and in a relaxed state. I'm not allowed to slow down or listen to the stillness that's around me. I envious of the day that I may find a cure for this unfortunate feeling.